{Warning there is a lot of writing and venting} Happy reading!
Being a live-in nanny has taught me so many things, not only about myself but skills that will be helpful for the future when I have my own family! I am so glad I got to be there for a while but I AM EXCITED TO BE HOME FOR GOOD! Yes, you read that right. I am back home! It is really nice to be home and I am excited to get back into school and start having a social life, but I do really miss being with my cute little kiddos everyday!
Being a live-in nanny has taught me so many things, not only about myself but skills that will be helpful for the future when I have my own family! I am so glad I got to be there for a while but I AM EXCITED TO BE HOME FOR GOOD! Yes, you read that right. I am back home! It is really nice to be home and I am excited to get back into school and start having a social life, but I do really miss being with my cute little kiddos everyday!
Here are some of the things that I learned and maybe it will help someone else!
1. Patience
I have always considered myself to be a pretty patient person, especially when I am with kids but sometimes they would try my patience. I learned that I need to be more patient with the kids and not let their little things bother me.
2. Life plans change
All my life I have always wanted to be a nurse and planned out all my schooling and was so excited to start so I could help other people. I thought that was my life course! Well apparently it isn't. I have now changed my schooling plans and I am going to be studying PSYCHOLOGY. What?! I'm still a little shocked but excited! It still seems crazy to me because I thought I knew what I wanted and how my life was going to go! But through much study and prayer I know this is what I am supposed to be doing and I can't wait to start!
3. I am who I am
All my life I have had a problem with my self esteem. I never thought I was pretty enough or good enough or smart enough and the list goes on and on. You see, I am a shy person so making new friends comes as a challenge to me. In 7th and 8th grade I had a great group of friends and we would hang out all the time and email each other and have so much fun! Well 9th grade came along with sports, cheer and everything else that made our little group go different ways and not be as close. This was hard for me because I didn't have many friends. All through high school I only went to a few dances, didn't go out much on weekends or to parties because I didn't get invited. It was hard for me and all those negative thoughts came back to me telling me I wasn't good enough.
Being away, having to leave my friends and going to a whole new place was eye opening for me. I didn't make many friends while I was away because I didn't go out but I did come to a conclusion. I AM WHO I AM AND I AM GOOD ENOUGH. I am glad I discovered this now because growing up and trying to find Mr. Right is hard. I am not as pretty as my best friend, I don't go on as many dates as another girl, and I don't get invited to as everyone else but I AM ME.
4. I am stronger than I think
The past 8 months have been some of the hardest {I don't mean to exaggerate} months of my life so far. But really. There were times when I cried myself to sleep because I wanted all the heartache to stop but it just wouldn't.
Watching people close to me make bad decisions and seeing how they affect not only themselves but their spouse and children! It frustrates me to no end that I can't open that person's eyes and show them that they are destroying something so good and the best thing that has happened in their life.
Seeing children go through so much hurt that it hurts me to watch and they aren't even my kids!
Standing by and watching my dad go through health problems and not being able to do anything to ease his pain.
Yes I have struggled, but through every trial I grow into a stronger person. I have become so much stronger than I could even imagine being at 19. {I am not bragging, just stating my feelings :)}
5. My family is so good.
I have always loved my family sooo much, but being away I have realized how much they are there to support me and help me when I need it!
There was one weekend in Tucson when I was having a particularly hard time and just wanted to be home with my family and have them comfort me. The closest thing I thought I had was a phone call to my mom crying to her and her doing the best she could to console me over the phone. Well a few minutes later my brother, Andrew and his wife Dee Dee told me they were coming to Tucson for the day. They couldn't have called at a better time! When they got to my house they told me my mom said I could come home, even though it was just for the night, and she would bring me back the next day! I couldn't have been more excited and I am grateful they were willing to drive 2 hours there and back just to pick me up. I love them so much!!!
One week Kristy had to be gone for the week for work. We had worked out that her mom would come get the girls so I would just have Cole and it would be easier. Well my sister Kristen worked out her schedule where she came for 1 night and stayed with me! I am so glad she did and even though it wasn't long it meant so much to me!
I have learned so much through these past months and am excited to keep learning, but be at home! Props if you read the whole thing :)
I will update with more fun things later!
xoxo
3. I am who I am
All my life I have had a problem with my self esteem. I never thought I was pretty enough or good enough or smart enough and the list goes on and on. You see, I am a shy person so making new friends comes as a challenge to me. In 7th and 8th grade I had a great group of friends and we would hang out all the time and email each other and have so much fun! Well 9th grade came along with sports, cheer and everything else that made our little group go different ways and not be as close. This was hard for me because I didn't have many friends. All through high school I only went to a few dances, didn't go out much on weekends or to parties because I didn't get invited. It was hard for me and all those negative thoughts came back to me telling me I wasn't good enough.
Being away, having to leave my friends and going to a whole new place was eye opening for me. I didn't make many friends while I was away because I didn't go out but I did come to a conclusion. I AM WHO I AM AND I AM GOOD ENOUGH. I am glad I discovered this now because growing up and trying to find Mr. Right is hard. I am not as pretty as my best friend, I don't go on as many dates as another girl, and I don't get invited to as everyone else but I AM ME.
4. I am stronger than I think
The past 8 months have been some of the hardest {I don't mean to exaggerate} months of my life so far. But really. There were times when I cried myself to sleep because I wanted all the heartache to stop but it just wouldn't.
Watching people close to me make bad decisions and seeing how they affect not only themselves but their spouse and children! It frustrates me to no end that I can't open that person's eyes and show them that they are destroying something so good and the best thing that has happened in their life.
Seeing children go through so much hurt that it hurts me to watch and they aren't even my kids!
Standing by and watching my dad go through health problems and not being able to do anything to ease his pain.
Yes I have struggled, but through every trial I grow into a stronger person. I have become so much stronger than I could even imagine being at 19. {I am not bragging, just stating my feelings :)}
5. My family is so good.
I have always loved my family sooo much, but being away I have realized how much they are there to support me and help me when I need it!
There was one weekend in Tucson when I was having a particularly hard time and just wanted to be home with my family and have them comfort me. The closest thing I thought I had was a phone call to my mom crying to her and her doing the best she could to console me over the phone. Well a few minutes later my brother, Andrew and his wife Dee Dee told me they were coming to Tucson for the day. They couldn't have called at a better time! When they got to my house they told me my mom said I could come home, even though it was just for the night, and she would bring me back the next day! I couldn't have been more excited and I am grateful they were willing to drive 2 hours there and back just to pick me up. I love them so much!!!
One week Kristy had to be gone for the week for work. We had worked out that her mom would come get the girls so I would just have Cole and it would be easier. Well my sister Kristen worked out her schedule where she came for 1 night and stayed with me! I am so glad she did and even though it wasn't long it meant so much to me!
I have learned so much through these past months and am excited to keep learning, but be at home! Props if you read the whole thing :)
I will update with more fun things later!
xoxo
